is almost 2 months since I first came to London.

Not exciting anymore, as I've spend most of my time working in my room,

walking to uni, library, ASDA.

But at last, the first task is over now~

Just finish my presentation few days ago,

still remember the nervousness I had that day.

And still remember the tremble of my hand.

Is gonna be so much easy this time, I told myself.

Just go out there and tell them your name, and then one single click,

that's all you need to do~

And then, right after the video finished, I heard clapping, my tutor cheering!

And then is the compliment he gave me in front of the class.

A lot of the classmate came to me, even those that I never talk to.

They congrats me, praised my performance,

asked for the technique I used in the video.

I realized some of them are alerted of my existence now,

a bloody Malaysian that can't even speak well but beat all of us~!

To make my day brighter, I talk to another tutor Naomi after the class.

"well done, your performance is probably the best in the class today."

I'm sorry that I have to stop our conversation that night when you called me,

because the tutor is waiting to talk to me.

I never have that compliment back in TOA,

how wonderful if I can share this with you that night, face to face,

so you'll know how happy I am that night. That's why I've sent 3 messages to you,

and then I realize I shouldn't interrupt because it's 1am that time!

I've read your blog today,

"prepare it well and practice it, I know you can do it well."

I'm doing that right now :)

Sorry for disturbing you sometimes, because I just feel like want to talk to you.

Since I got not many people to share my happiness here.

I'll leave you to work on your exam for the coming weeks now~

prepare it well and practice it,

hubby know that you can do it even much better than me~!

Promise me to take care yourself, because I love you.

First week @ London

10.15pm, equal to 5.15am now in Malaysia
Happy birthday mum~! Is your day again, haha.
Time flies isn't it? Can't believe that I'm all alone here now, at last!
Still feels like dreaming though, everything happened among the first week of my uni life is somehow, incredible I should say. All the people I met, all the activities I joined, all the brand new lifestyle and cultural that I have to get use to.

Flashing back the moment I sat alone on the plane, peeking the mother beside me whispering with her daughter, I felt sad. I miss my family and my precious one. Still remember the minute when I'm on top of Afghanistan, I cried like a lil boy.

And now, a week passed. I know there's a long period waiting for me to experience myself, all by myself. But at least I'd settle down now. I wash my dishes, boil my water, wash my clothes, prepare my breakfast, bought my lunch, after all this is what I want isn't it? Try to grow up!

Such a moody day, the sky is moody, winds keep blowing around like a madness. I'm like a idiot walking twice today to the university, and yay, it rains when I on my way home~ So regret that I actually walked 30 minutes just to attend a stupid gathering that none of my lecturer or classmate appear, like I can recognize their face.


A field trip tomorrow, wonder what's gonna happen cause I need to figure out the way to get there.
And now, I opened the window, the wind still blowing like it never stops...


What am I writing? I guess because I don't have much chance to talk to people for the whole day.
Nahhh.. all I wanna say is..

Hey mummy, Happy 50th birthday~!!
Hey sister, get well soon~!!
Hey dad, is gonna be a busy schedule, take care~!!
Hey bro, good luck on the new restaurant~!!
Hey lil sister, good luck on the upcoming driving test~!!


And,
hey baby, I miss you so much tonight... And I did it again, kept staring at your photos now and wondering can you feel my heart is missing you?
How I wish to kiss you right now, how desparate I am just to wish to hug you again.

I love you my dearest wife, always.

Time To Renew The Wishlist~

The impressive18 mega pixels, articulating screen, creative filters, raw image processor, wireless flash controller and lots more...


at last... AT LAST!

I owned you - EOS 60D!

after considering for more than half year, is just sometime we gotta be bold when making a (it is a big decision for me) decision ain't?

Bringing RM5100 and walking down the staircase to ground floor is just sooo scary, 

I was so alert and cluttered while I'm on my way to the kiosk.

Should I buy now? Oh perhaps I should wait for another month?

And I'm still hesitating even when I pulled out a stack of RM50s to James, the seller.

Hey, you'd been looking and researching and surveying and testing and dreaming day by day, week by week, month by month for it..
Japan was hit by tsunami, 15% increment on all the photography gadgets soon, and much worst, it will be out of stock soon.

Fuck that, buy it!

And here it is... Hope I'll have enough time to fully utilize it~

I could have pay more for a better lens but ended up, I think this is more than enough~

Well, at first I thought it is more than enough~
because the next morning, I called up James and ask for a trade to sigma 17-70 IS MACRO OS HSM which i have to pay more for it. (although not too much)


The Tamron is just too heavy, almost the same as the body itself and is going to be a problem when turning the zooming ring because I don't wanna buy a battery grip. It's focusing is so loud, basically is just the astonishing F2.8 that impressed me.
Since I'm taking it to London, I guess a quieter focusing with macro mode included, plus another 20mm zooming length.. Enough say, go for Sigma then~

tamron 17-50 vc~ I'm gonna miss your F2.8

the elegant letter form~

new wallpaper again? probably...~

Frankly, I'm so exciting for my new toys!!! XD

The Pursuit of Happyness

I'll just take it as my favorite movie.

Starring by Will Smith and his lil son, Jaden.

I'd been watching this movie for, let's take it 10 times. Is actually one of a movie that I got from my Filipino friend back in college. At first I thought it was a routine storyline movie, but indeed, it is, for some of them.

After I finished all the movie my friend gave me, I leave this at last, questioning myself, how nice would this be?

Really, you gotta finish the whole movie before you can but a conclusion for it.
(ps: watching alone inspires you more~)

It is based on a true story, Chris Gardner, an ordinary American, having a small family which is his wife, and his lil son. He made a failure in the beginning of his life by investing all of his money on a medical devise - portable bone density scanner, which at first, he thought that it would be a 'must' in the coming time, but eventually, it's just a scanner that provides slightly denser picture of x-ray, for twice the money.

Helplessly, he's counting on all the machines, as he has to sell at least two scanners a month for rent, day care payment of his son, taxes, and lots of bill. Unfortunately, is been a long time since he last sold the scanner. So, problems occurred, his wife pissed off and leave the house, and he has no more money to pay the rent and got chased off the house.

For his son, he desperately needs a job. And by the time he manage to earns an internship post at a brokerage firm Dean Witter, he realizes that he will not get pay during the internship period and only one will be choose from the interns to work for the firm...

It is the movie that made me think about my life, think about my future, my family, my wife, my kids, everything... It is not easy to survive out there. And it is not easy to run your own family. See, I can starve for days, I can wear RM5 shirts for my entire life, and I could just raise up my hand, and ask for a lil money to survive, but not my kid. It shows me that a mother's love is not infinitely more powerful than a man's. You gotta work as hard as you can to give them the best, and yet, you gotta teach them well.

"Hey! don't ever let somebody tell you, you can't do something, not even me.

you got a dream, you gotta protect it.

People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you, you can't do it.

you want something, go get it."

probably the best scene in the movie

New Environment at March~!

Here I am, after circling around out there for 2 years...

at last, I got back to my dad, 倦鸟知还啊~ (first ever chinese sentence in my blog!!)

3rd week now, I still got not much work to do, guess I still need to give him some time,

some time to get used with a so called colleague~

Something happened today! Might be a tiny little incident for someone,

my office's signboard finally dropped down itself!

It has been hanging out there for 20++ years, and what amazing is,

it did not hit any car or, fortunately, any people! lol

The shop lot down there is a tyre shop, used to be very packed everyday.

Someone told dad that it almost hit a motor, whatever.

I went to the back lane to look for that signboard, and I think I saw it,

but when I came closer, a stupid dog barking at me.

You know what came across my mind?

after 20 years, IDC's signboard dropped down itself,


does it resembling a new era is rising~?

One day, maybe not now, and maybe I need more time to prove myself...

One day, I'll grow it up myself, no matter IDC or Tulip.

Something is growing, I can sense that.

I'd been given a great opportunity, a shortcut by my old one.

None of my classmate has this advantage.

I definitely need to prove myself~

Went to alot of factories today,

from Kampung Jawa, to Puchong Steel Case, 
and then Shah Alam's Panasonic Manufacturing.

Drove 200km >.<

Alot of projects are coming up, after 3 weeks doing nothing, it is time now ~.~

Applause for Pun, she did something brave and clever, 
and of course, her 'I WONT QUIT' spirit~!

I'm proud of you, my lady~

hahaha~

Our lose weight plan starting soon!!! >.<

March~

I'd bought myself a new flashgun~!

As I need to use it for Pun's grandpa's birthday shooting, 
as well as sister's and dad's~

Speedlite 430 EX II ! yayyy~!

Was thinking to buy 580 EX II at first, but too bad it cost too much and I guess,

430 is more than enough~ i can save the RM600 for other gadgets~

love the final outcome~

sister's birthday

Pun's grandpa birthday

ah Pun's grandpa & grandma (2 at the back)

What's next?

60D + 18-200mm kit lens~~~ lols

But first I need to wish all the best to Japan, because...

their Canon & Nikon factories are temporary down!! >.<

(ps : all the best Japan, from the deepest of my heart)

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Maybe is not the new world that I found,

Just a new perspective - 60D's slogan~

I'm poisoned~!!